It's Still Not Over

Crying, crying
  all day
  can't stop the tears

They flow from me
  like a dam broken.
  But it's not a dam really.
  It's my heart.

Course corrections
  watching, observing
  trying to learn
  trying to adapt
  trying to be creative
    to go with the flow
    to try different things
    to be 'up'
    to stay 'up'
    to 'hold the line'
    to 'keep on going...'

Hoping for a break
  but it just doesn't come.
  Like a thief in the night,
  it alludes me,
  tantalizing me with dreams of possibilities
  and smashing my heart
  with those same dreams
  now leaden and dark,
  stripped of life and breath.

breathe, breathe, breathe
  turn the corner
  take another step
  it's not over
  it's far from over