El

14 November 2010

'No matter what happens on the outside,
  become quiet.
  You will find Me inside.

  Therein lies your abundance.

I AM ether, light, pure energy

I rush through trees, 

  spark out the branches, set the leaves on fire with my light.

I ignite inside your belly
  and burn til you look to me.

I will bring you madness and peace,
  that which you wish.
  Abundance
  Quiet

Feel me………………………..

I AM the energy in your hands, in the trees
I AM the slips of light that pass between your consciousness and dreams
I AM the voice that you seek.

I’ve been waiting for you.
  Stand here next to me and I will teach you.
  You will speak, you will understand.'

Powerful, unknowable entity.
  Teacher.
  Show me abundance.
  In love with the earth, but not bound to it, 

  pure beauty, radiance, breathing the breath of life.

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I am so amazed!
  So many readers on this blog from all over the world?!
  And now, new readers from Belarus and Kazakhstan?!

Yes, the internet is the means through which we find each other.
  But, I'm feeling that it is spirit who calls us together...

Spirit, for which we have thousands of names
  and even more interpretations...

but which calls all hearts and souls
  inspires in humankind a need to search
  challenges us to think/imagine beyond
  welcomes all, celebrates difference
  smiles in compassion

says, 'Yes' to us all

Spirit, Material, Spirit, Spirit, Spirit

Sometimes, this reality feels so dense.

Like the balance between formed and unformed is off.
  Like the material is crowding out the potential.

The material boggs me down, slows my motion, obstructs my vision;
  conspires to obliterate my knowing, my connection to the REAL.

Spinning, spinning, faster and faster to shake loose the weight of the material.
  To disembody the energy, to welcome back pure being.

Witnessing the material blurr into a primordial mass, lose its meaning.
  Feeling gravity dissolve, setting loose its grip on my feet.

Sensing light all round, melting material back into potential.
  Feeling again the freedom to breath, to soar, to know...

But not needing any of it.

Grandmother Tree

'I am Grandmother.'

'I lived many moons in this tree
  and now it has fallen to its rest.'

'But, I am here still,
  breathing life into the seed
  held by mother earth,
  sparking the energy that flows
  from root to stars,
  blessing the fragile bud, and
  laughing in glee as it bursts forth
  in the song of blossom.'

'I am tender hearted and strong.
  I am here, forever, with you.'

'Walk in my path.
  Find shade beneath my branches.
  Feast on my fruit.
  Touch the sky from my limbs.'

'I come to you in grace
  as a conduit between mother earth,
  father sky and infinity beyond.'

'Breath the air from my lungs.
  Feel the cool soil beneath my bough.
  Know that you are loved, always.'

Tender Strength

A tree stood tall and proud, swaying gently with the wind.
  It had taken root in the remains of an old-growth tree.
  Hugging its mother with roots, supple and granite hard.
  Holding fast to its perch six feet off the ground.

I asked, 'Tree, how do I live in my strength?'

She replied, 'I am strong.  I do not hide my strength.
  I stand in my strength.
  To cower would not be authentic.'

'How,' I asked, 'do you honor others and be strong
  at the same time?'

'Listen to me,' she said.
  'I am quiet.
  I reach ever toward the Creator.
  And, I stay firmly planted in this earth.'

'My arms spread out in joy and gratitude,
  giving thanks...always.'

'I am vital, bursting forth with life.
  Yet, I know always that I grow strong
  because of my mother.'

'She gave me nourishment and shelter.
  She held me up to the Creator even as
  she slipped through the veil to her next beginning.'

'I am forever grateful.
  So, I stand in my strength.
  I breath in and I breath out.
  I give whisper to the wind, and
  sprinkle to the rain.'

Echoes in the Universe

Stilll

And in the profound quiet, a whisper
  then another
  and another

Whispers floating through space
  gently meandering
  no course
  only being

'What,' say I
  'do you bring?'

Whispers so far from
  the lips through which
  they gained their form

Detached now
  partial thoughts
  unembedded feelings
  fleeting brilliance
  disembodied consciousness

Listening, I hear
  the silence is alive with the whispers
  the commotion verges on chaos
  the possibilities infinite
  the future, the past, the now
  All One

Creation in a whisper
  lives completed in one breath
  worlds born and collapsed
  with a whisper

Reaching into the depths
  the whispers reveal
  the memories
  the ideals
  the thoughts
  the feelings

of so many
  of my self
  echoing through the universe

Stepping back from the self
  in this incarnation
  quieting the mind

to hear the silence

to witness the All

Echoes in the Universe

YOU Were There

Today, I woke up
  and YOU were there.

Always there.

Holding, loving, watching...

God

The Spirit that breathes
  and life forms.

The ONE that thinks
  and creation begins.

The ALL that IS.

Today, I woke up
  and YOU were there.

Spirit - My Teacher

Yesterday, I spent some time reading about Chakras
  as part of my search to understand my experience
  with Kundalini rising.

I read a section on cleansing and vitalizing the Chakras
  and moving the Kundalini energy.
  I had particular problems with moving the Kundalini energy
  leading to much pain and emotional trauma.

As I read, I noted the various chakras on my seven bodies that
  have felt out-of-balance in the past.
  One in particular caught my attention.
  It is the seat of the most profound trauma
    I have experienced in this lifetime.
  It is the epi-center of probably the most significant
    lesson I incarnated to learn.

I remembered that during the Kundalini rising,
  the energy always got stuck on that chakra,
  was not able to rise above that point.
  So, it broiled and burned,
    creating emotional turmoil and severe physical pain.

Before dawn, I awoke with the realization that I
  need to cleanse that Chakra,
  to open it so that I can move forward in life
  and allow the Kundalini to flow.

So, I followed that cleansing practice.
  I could feel the energy moving,
    felt it coming out of my body into my hand.
  I directed it outward and upward,
    and watched as a dark sludge built up
    on my aura.
  But, there was something stuck just below my skin.
  I could not get it out.

I remember thinking that I needed to cleanse my aura
  of the sludge, but fell asleep.

A few hours later, I awoke with a migraine,
  remembered I hadn't cleansed the sludge from my aura,
  and realized I had forgotten to burn it from my chakra.

And, I had an epiphany.
  In the material world, I am looking for work.
  These last months, I have written multiple cover letters
    describing in detail my qualifications for
    various jobs.

First, I realized that, on a spiritual level,
  I drew this situation to me
  to play, over and again, a cycle
    finely tuned to the storyline I have created
    for myself regarding my life trauma/lesson.

Namely, the cover letters describing my qualifications
  aren't really for the unknown readers to whom I send them.
  They are for me,
    to convince me that I am worthy.

And, I keep playing the story over and again
  because I don't really believe
  that which I am expending all my effort
  to convince myself of.

And, the second realization...
  I am spending all my time and energy
  endeavoring to convince myself of my worth,
  and none on manifesting the reality into which I want to move!!!

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Something inside me switched with that realization.
  I focused on manifesting the reality I want to create.
  As I fell back to sleep, I was visualizing being
  happy and fulfilled in my career and life...

I was awoken sometime later by a phone call.
  It was a professor from a university to which I had applied.
  He asked me for an interview.

I AM El

'I AM El.

Release your voice,
  there is a song waiting to be sung.

Lift up your head,
  there is a gift waiting to be shared.

Raise your hands,
  there is love you are to receive.

Close your eyes and see.
  Cover your ears and hear.
  
I AM here.
  I AM inspiration awaiting birth.
  I AM love bursting from your heart.
  I AM 

I will show you a way through the storm.
  I will be a light in the darkness.
  I will hold you when the earth falls 
   from under your feet.
  I AM

Witness now
  the vast changes through which
  your mother Gia will grow.

Recognize that the shifting of Gia
  is the shifting of you,
  of all.

All will be changed,
  transformed.

New life will emerge,
  nourished by the dream
  standing firmly in the hope
  waiting patiently no more.

It is upon you.
  Step forward
  now
  with me
  
into the future unfolding.'

To Walk in Spirit

In a moment of clarity,
  I realized...

These things I most fear
  really can happen.

There was a stillness
  inside me...
  and
  a question.

'What then?'

And again, the clarity.
  To walk in Spirit, always.

And a prayer...

'Whatever comes to me this day,
  I wish to walk in Spirit.'

That simple, and entirely
  incomprehensible.
  Yet, it remains my deepest desire.

spiritualize the material

I AM the Stars and the Moon

Allow ME in you
  I AM the stars and the moon
  I AM you, the ants, the grass

Come with ME
  live in ME
  feel the ALL
  the nothing

There I AM

And there, so ARE you

You are frightened
  you fear loss of self
  so tied are you to the identity
  you have crafted for your self

One day you will see...
  That identity clouds
  your vision
  of what really IS

I AM
  You ARE

This is why you can be anything
  because I AM

But, herein lies the essence of this existence
  to experience the illusion
  that you are separate from ME
  to learn that you never were apart from ME
  and in that journey
  to learn the lessons you set out to explore
  in this lifetime.

I invite you every moment
  to let go and allow ME
  fully

I honor your fear, your reticence.
  I smile for I love you
  always
  no matter  what.

You ARE learning
  You ARE almost there.

I can wait for your journey to unfold before you
  I take pleasure in your journey
  But know that I AM
  always here,
  even when you can't see ME.

And, one day,
  you will realize that you never had
  to go anywhere or
  do anything
  or be anything
  to have my love.

Climb your mountains
  and know that
  where ever you ARE
  so will I BE.

Manifest ME Through You

Don't forget why you are here.

Yes, this moment is real,
  but you are a multidimensional being.
  The I that is You lives in the space in-between
   even as it animates the flesh.

You answered a call in your re-incarnation.
  Remember, remember...
  What was it to which you said, 'yes'?
  Why are you here?

Step, now, into your Self.
  Feel the mighty power of the ALL
   coursing through your veins.

Hear the call of Spirit
  in the far reaches of your mind.
  Feel the Spirit within dancing, reaching, desiring
  to manifest now, in and through you.

Don't  forget
  who you are

Hear me

Hear me

I AM

You ARE

Manifest ME through you

Quan Yin

Quan Yin - Goddess of Compassion

Divine feminine from the Buddhist tradition.
  What brings you to me,
  or rather me to you?

'I come to you now
  so that you will tell all
  there is hope.

I feel the cries from
  all corners of the earth.
  I feel the hunger
  pains cramping your stomach.
  I feel the thirst
  that drains the life from your body.
  I hear the bomb that shall
  crash upon your home.

I am compassion, mercy, love
  for all humanity.

The tears I shed
  are for you, because of your pain,
  in prayer for your future.

Look up from your sorrow,
  from the pain that defines your day.
  See me shining in the stars
  and in the eyes of 
  a stranger.

And feel, in me,
  a gentle and uncompromising
  love 
  for all that you are.

I shall not leave until 
  each one,
  all, of you
  feel the grace of God
  in your heart
  and the breath of life
  in your soul.
  I shall stand, forever, by your side.

I am Quan Yin, Goddess of Compassion and Mercy.
  You
  are the Divine, embodied now
  in flesh,
  for a brief, but important,
  walk upon this earth.

Know that you never walk alone,
  always I am with you.
  And so you
  with another.

Reach out.
  Feel my compassion
  rush through your open heart
  to another.
  Bask in the preciousness that 
  is love manifest
  in this life.

Together, we will heal
  this broken world
  and hold all
  in love.'

Remember

I Am come to bring you peace.
Through the energetic field
of the masters
I encompass the earth,
all of life,
with chi,
regularly flowing
 in and out

breathe deeply
infuse your earthly body
with the magic that is life
feel the energy of
Me
rush through your veins
feel it tingle against your skin
know that I Am here,
present
always
among you
within you
as you

Remember who you are.

Remember

Remember

purple blues streaking through the starlit sky
all held gently
in love
by the Creator,
the All

physical melting into energy
boundaries melting into oneness
you into me into us
gently
sweetly
peacefully

now light, floating
touching, kneeling

the gentle hand reaching inside
caressing the ravaged heart
quieting the rampaging mind
reaching, reaching, reaching
to the soul

holding it,
reminding it
who it is,
really

letting go
letting fall
into
oneness

peace

beauty

one

spirit mingling with flesh
penetrating flesh
merging with flesh
invigorating flesh
animating flesh

setting forth

for another journey incarnate
to live, to learn, to experience

to give back
always to give back
in thanks, in gratitude,
in honor.

find the oneness
in our separateness

find the oneness
that is our
All.

find it,
hold it,
revere it

remember

remember
remember

be, witness, express
beauty, kindness, compassion, love

live life as a poem
create
love
always love

and remember
always remember
you are more than you can see, hear, touch, feel

you are

I Am the Space In-Between

20 June 2011

I awoke to a desert;
  white sand all,
  except the blue of sky,
  both reaching to infinity.

'In this space, you shall find holiness...'

This is the space of the unknown.

But, what can we know of the 'unknown'?
  Of what does it taste? smell? feel?
  What lies therein?

White sand all,
  except the blue of sky,
  both reaching to infinity...

and me.

Solitary among the trillion bits of sand.
  A single breath laced into the gentle wind.
  A soul alone in the vastness of...
  what?
  of what?

Quiet.

Unbounded openness, empty space.
  Standing on a blank page;
  waiting for the writing to appear.

Nothing.

'Oh my god.

There is nothing.

Nothing except me.'

Roused by the empty space,
  my demons jump to the fore;
  fear, uncertainty, doubt, guilt, judge...
  voracious, black, eager.

Lusting after the empty space,
  the opportunity to fill the void;
  gluttonous, insatiable,
  never enough space to fill;
  unquenchable thirst;
  ready, ready, ready
  to be let loose.

Assuming the mask of authority and import,
  they shove violently into the space,
  quickly consuming it,
  casting shadow where light once shown,
  polluting the pristine sand with slime and filth.

White sand all,
  except the blue of sky,
  both reaching to infinity...

'Where have you gone?'

I close my eyes,
  remember the white, the blue, the openness...

I remember the child puppeteer, the one sending the demons.
  I see her fragility, her misguided attempts to protect me, her frightened heart.
  And, as so many times before,
  I take her into my arms and hold her;
  love, compassion, understanding, reassurance...

The puppets fall from the sky,
  melting into energy,
  transforming into chi.

'It is okay to be frightened.
  There is no need to be ashamed.
  Hold it, allow it.

Fear is part of being human.
  You walk in human form.
  Honor it, love it...

And, keep walking.'

The first lesson from the 'unknown'.

To be human is to know fear.
  A sage doesn't lack fear;
  she acknowledges and honors it.
  She learns to walk with it.

and...

She allows others to see it,
  to witness her fallibility.

For in her honest presentation of her self,
  she empowers others to embrace
  the humanness that is them,
  and to learn to walk
  in that humanness,
  to experience the divine.
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'I am the space in-between.
  Look carefully.
  You see?

Here I Am.

Always there, here.
  Can you feel?

I feel your fear.
  I see the veil with which fear clouds your vision.

I love you.

You learned, did you not, in physics
  that the space in-between is vast,
  greater than the material forms I created from this space;

  that the material forms, too, are mostly the space in-between.

My child,
  that space in-between
  is not empty.

It is the all of life;
  It is the chi;
  It is the source.

It is the vibration in your body.
  It is the energy rushing through your hands.'

White sand all,
  except the blue of sky,
  both reaching to infinity...

The Unknown;
  the Holiness in the Unknown;
  the life in the Unknown;
  the source in the Unknown...

'There...
  There am I.
  There I AM.'