Meeting - again - My Self

14 November 2010

Led to the falls. Walked, felt the power of the trees.

  Stepped inside a tree and heard its soul. 

  I did a ritual of thanks for the sunset/transformation through which I am traveling.

While walking, I felt the presence inside me again, looking out.

  It was so curious, gazed in awe at the beauty of the pulsating life at the falls. 

  I talked with the wolf.
  It said I was to find my abundance in the work for which I trained. 

  It will be in writing. My ‘higher self’ will speak through me – together we will create.

My ‘higher self’ wants me to take it into nature more – on a regular basis. 

  It wants to experience life through the five senses - fully. 

  That’s why I’ve taken the path I have – because it/I wanted to feel it all, 

  the joy, the pain, the health and sickness, the wonder of manifesting in this reality. 

I understood now, my lifelong passion for and love of the earth. 

  There wasn’t a need to study it or choose it as a career path, 

  but simply to revel in its glory.

It almost felt as if we made an agreement – 

  I would take it into nature more – again – 

  and it would share with me the words it has to share.

And now, as I fully embrace all this as uniquely and truly me, 

  I will no longer refer to ‘it’ in the third person. 

  I am not certain, but I believe this is me – the larger, omnipresent me. 

Yet, I feel as if I’m meeting this entity. 

  Me in my human form feels separate from me in spirit,
   feels like I’m just getting to know me. 

  But I think, rather, I am remembering who I am…

   touching again the truth that has always resided in ‘me’. 

So, for lack of better terms, for now I shall call this entity my higher self.